“If you can understand that ‘all disease’ is from ‘toxic stuff we ingest, both body and mind’ and would quickly like the see the ‘what and why’ to do about it.”
Mike Stone’s fascinating book while mentioning side effects of covid-19 vaccine, goes deeper than that to all things that affect our health.
With hard data references to some of the pioneer doctors that we can easily see they were trail-blazing deep into our health issues. My favourite part to this easy-to-read heartfelt health book is how the punch line leads us closer to God and deeper into ourselves. If you can understand that ‘all disease’ is from ‘toxic stuff we ingest, both body and mind’ and would quickly like the see the ‘what and why’ to do about it.
Pg 13–Detoxing is where to start, once you nourish your body properly.
Dr. J.R. Tilden pioneered Toxemia Explained. Dr. Max Gerson says nourish first, then detoxify.
Dr. Weston Price a dentist that travelled the world studying indigenous people and developed the optimal human diet.
Dr. Nicholas Gonzalez had great success in curing cancer prescribing clean organic raw liver.
Dr. Richard Schulze the only doctor reviewed of current times found Echinacea is one of the strongest immune stimulators.
Dick Quinn (relaying on Dr. John Christopher) found cayenne pepper heals the heart conditions.
Pg 14—The incredible Coffee Enema detox by Dr. Max Gerson
Pg 17—One of the best most valuable meats to eat is clean-organic raw liver.
Pg 19—The outstanding benefits of the herb Echinacea, and cayenne pepper.
Pg 23—How and why juicing is VIP and life saver.
Pg 26 –16 oz of cucumber juice each day keeps the doctors all at bay.
Pg 31 + 32 –What to make sure you are not ingesting and what you should ingest.
Pg 33–Why distilled water is a must.
Pg 41–In healing yourself, how Forgiveness becomes the master healer.
Pg 52–Sunshine au natural is a must, just as all living things need it to grow so do we need it to grow our healing.
Pg 55—Sleep is the king aspect of healing within, it is literally the only time we do heal inside.
Pg 59 — How honesty works to heal. Every time we lie we weaken our immune system.
Pg 62 — Pride is the biggest blockage to admit things about ourselves.
Pg 64 – Ignorance exists because people do not seek the truth.
Pg 65 –Depression stems from our body’s reaction to living in an unnatural society.
Pg 67 — Dr. Price explains the optimum diet for humans to consume.
Pg 70 — How we can deal with people that are a ‘dope’.
Pg 71 — “When a person’s livelihood depends on a system of lies, it’s very hard to get them to acknowledge the truth.” (The 1900s was the era of dumbing down humanity, to the point of where we are today).
Pg 74 –Stone’s best advice is be sure to requite God’s love and healing will happen.
Pg 83 — Over 90% of humanity make decisions based on emotions, not facts and evidence.
(Listen to the song ‘We Are the World’and as it goes through ‘let’s start giving’ think of it as ‘care to ourselves’; ‘we’re saving our own lives’) First Comment from Jay There is 0% chance of REVERSING the so called ‘vax’ for the so called CV.
The ‘jab’ WILL PERMANENTLY change the DNA and can NOT EVER be reversed! It is 2021/2022, THEY want US DEAD! Prayer (since there is NO god or jesus) is WORTHLESS! The BIOWEAPON will kill those with the stab in less than 3 years and NOTHING on EARTH can reverse this HELL!!
In short: 100% of those receiving the vax are SCREWED! Even with only one jab!!!
The jab is step one of moving humanity into Transhumanism, then in the Singularity.
Sorry, but Mr. Stone HAS NO CLUE OF WHAT HE IS SPEAKING ABOUT!
PLUS, there are 300+ ingredients that are NOT found on Earth!
He is selling HOPIUM and those STUPID enough to buy his book will be HIGHLY AGITATED when they find out the book is a SCAM since those JABBED are now 100% the property of the manufacturer that produced the ‘experimental’ crap!!
I sent this information in a MUCH expanded version several times! NOT sure why you have NOT posted any of them!
Major changes are coming to Earth in 2022!! MANY will NOT be here January 1, 2023!! BILLIONS!!
You have the information, be WISE and post it and find BETTER writers for your site, than Mr. Stone!!
Have a happy new year!—— Thanks Jay, I like to post conflicting views, and Mike Stone writes wonderfully about life in the LA Gulag.
On this occasion, analyzing one of the images obtained by Dr. Campra, corresponding to a sample of the Pfizer vaccine, see figure 1, it has been discovered, which with great probability, is a nanorouter or part of its circuitry. In the original image, a well-defined drop can be seen in which crystalline structures of a quadrangular or cubic format appear. If you look closely, you can see some marks on these crystals, with a regular pattern, well defined in some cases, but limited by the microscope optics.
The finding has been possible by isolating each quadrangular crystal, applying a process of rasterizing, focusing and delineating the edges of the image, in order to further pronounce the observed marks. Once this process was completed, a rough draft was drawn with the lines and patterns inscribed on the glass, creating a clean outline of what actually looked like a circuit. The fact of finding parallel and perpendicular lines with a distribution far from the fractal patterns was very striking, which allowed us to automatically infer the possibility that it had been a product of manufacture. For this reason, similar patterns were searched in the scientific literature, which had a similar scheme, similar to the circuit that had just been drawn. The search result was almost immediate, as the pattern of a quantum dot nanorouter was found, as seen in Figure 2.
This discovery is of fundamental relevance, not only to understand the true purpose and components of the coronavirus vaccines, but also to explain the existence of the phenomenon of MAC addresses, visible through the bluetooth of many mobile devices.
Before proceeding with the explanation of the finding, it is convenient to remember the context in which it is framed, in order to ensure its understanding and subsequent deepening.
In the first place, it should be borne in mind that graphene and its derivatives, graphene oxide (GO) and carbon nanotubes (CNT), are part of the components of vaccines, according to what has already been stated in this blog. The properties of graphene are exceptional from the physical point of view, but also thermodynamic, electronic, mechanical and magnetic. Its characteristics allow its use as a superconductor, electromagnetic wave absorbing material (microwave EM), emitter, signal receiver, quantum antenna, which makes it possible to create advanced electronics on a nano and micrometric scale. Such is the case, that it is the fundamental nanomaterial for the development of nano-biomedicine (Mitragotri, S .; Anderson, DG; Chen, X .; Chow, EK; Ho, D .; Kabanov, AV; Xu, C. 2015 ), nano-communication networks (Kumar, MR 2019), new drug delivery therapies (Yu, J .; Zhang, Y .; Yan, J .; Kahkoska, AR; Gu, Z. 2018) and treatments against cancer (Huang, G .; Huang, H. 2018) and the neurological treatment of neurodegenerative diseases (John, AA; Subramanian, AP; Vellayappan, MV; Balaji, A .; Mohandas, H .; Jaganathan, SK 2015 ). However, all the benefits aside, the scientific literature is very clear regarding the health implications for the human body. It is well known that graphene (G), graphene oxide (GO) and other derivatives such as carbon nanotubes (CNT) are toxic in almost all their forms, causing mutagenesis, cell death (apoptosis), release of free radicals, lung toxicity , bilateral pneumonia, genotoxicity or DNA damage, inflammation, immunosuppression, damage to the nervous system, the circulatory, endocrine, reproductive, and urinary systems, which can cause anaphylactic death and multi-organ dysfunction, see page “Damages and toxicity of graphene oxide” and from “Damage and toxicity of carbon-graphene nanotubes“.
Second, graphene is a radio-modulable nanomaterial, capable of absorbing electromagnetic waves and multiplying radiation, acting as a nano-antenna, or a signal repeater (Chen, Y .; Fu, X .; Liu, L .; Zhang , Y .; Cao, L .; Yuan, D .; Liu, P. 2019). Exposure to electromagnetic radiation can cause exfoliation of the material in smaller particles (Lu, J .; Yeo, PSE; Gan, CK; Wu, P .; Loh, KP 2011), called graphene quantum dots or GQD (Graphene Quantum Dots), whose physical properties and particularities improve due to their even smaller scale, due to the “Quantum Hall” effect, since they act by amplifying electromagnetic signals (Massicotte, M .; Yu, V .; Whiteway, E .; Vatnik , D .; Hilke, M. 2013 | Zhang, X .; Zhou, Q .; Yuan, M .; Liao, B .; Wu, X .; Ying, M. 2020), and with it the emission distance, especially in environments such as the human body (Chopra, N .; Phipott, M .; Alomainy, A .; Abbasi, QH; Qaraqe, K .; Shubair, RM 2016). GQDs can acquire various morphologies, for example hexagonal, triangular, circular or irregular polygon (Tian, P .; Tang, L .; Teng, K.S .; Lau, S.P. 2018).
The superconducting and transducing capacity make graphene one of the most suitable materials to create wireless nanocommunication networks for the administration of nanotechnology in the human body. This approach has been intensively worked by the scientific community, after having found and analyzed the available protocols and specifications, but also the routing systems for the data packets that nano-devices and nano-nodes would generate within the body, in a system complex called CORONA, whose objective is the effective transmission of signals and data on the network, optimizing energy consumption (to the minimum possible), and also reducing failures in the transmission of data packets (Bouchedjera, IA ; Aliouat, Z .; Louail, L. 2020 | Bouchedjera, IA; Louail, L .; Aliouat, Z .; Harous, S. 2020 | Tsioliaridou, A .; Liaskos, C .; Ioannidis, S .; Pitsillides, A . 2015). In this nanocommunications network, a type of signal TS-OOK (Time-Spread On-Off Keying) is used that allows transmitting binary codes of 0 and 1, through short pulses that involve the activation and deactivation of the signal during time intervals very small of a few femtoseconds (Zhang, R .; Yang, K .; Abbasi, QH; Qaraqe, KA; Alomainy, A. 2017 | Vavouris, AK; Dervisi, FD; Papanikolaou, VK; Karagiannidis, GK 2018). Due to the complexity of nanocommunications in the human body, where the nano-nodes of the network are distributed throughout the body, in many cases in motion, due to blood flow, and in others attached to the endothelium to the arterial walls and capillaries or in the tissues of other organs, researchers have required the development of software for the simulation of such conditions, in order to verify and validate the nanocommunication protocols that were being developed (Dhoutaut, D .; Arrabal, T .; Dedu, E. 2018).
On the other hand, the nanocommunications network oriented to the human body (Balghusoon, A.O .; Mahfoudh, S. 2020), has been carefully designed in its topological aspects, conceiving specialized components in the performance of this task. For example, electromagnetic nanocommunication is made up in its most basic layer by nano-nodes that are devices (presumably made of graphene, carbon nanotubes, GQD, among other objects and materials) that have the ability to interact as nanosensors, piezo-electric actuators , and in any case as nano-antennas that propagate the signals to the rest of the nano-nodes. The nano-nodes, find in the nano-routers (also called nano-controllers) the next step in the topology. Its function is to receive the signals emitted by the nano-nodes, process them and send them to the nano-interfaces, which will emit them to the outside of the body with the necessary frequency and scope, since it must overcome the skin barrier without losing clarity in the signal, so that it can be received by a mobile device at a close enough distance (usually a few meters). That mobile device would actually be a smartphone or any other device with an Internet connection, which allows it to act as a “Gateway”. The topology also defines the possibility that the entire nano-node, nanorouter and nano-interface infrastructure is unified in a single nano-device, called pole or metamaterial defined by SDM software (Lee, SJ; Jung, C. ; Choi, K .; Kim, S. 2015). This model simplifies the topology, but increases the size of the device and the complexity of its construction, conceived in several layers of graphene. In any case, regardless of the topology, nanorouters are necessary to route and decode the signals correctly, for their sending, but also for their reception, since they can be designed for a bidirectional service, which de facto implies the ability to receive signals. of commands, orders, operations that interact with the objects of the network.
To electromagnetic nanocommunication, we must add molecular nanocommunication, addressed in the entry on carbon nanotubes and new evidence in vaccine samples. In both publications, the implications of these objects in the field of neuroscience, neuromodulation and neurostimulation are analyzed, since if they are located in the neuronal tissue (something very likely, given the ability to overcome the blood-brain barrier), they can establish connections that bridge the neuronal synapse. This means that they link neurons with different shortcuts, shorter than natural axons (Fabbro, A .; Cellot, G .; Prato, M .; Ballerini, L. 2011). Although this can be used in experimental treatments to mitigate the effects of neurodegenerative diseases, it can also be used to directly interfere with neurons, the secretion of neurotransmitters such as dopamine, the involuntary activation of certain areas of the brain, their neurostimulation or modulation, through electrical impulses, generated from carbon nanotubes (Suzuki, J .; Budiman, H .; Carr, TA; DeBlois, JH 2013 | Balasubramaniam, S .; Boyle, NT; Della-Chiesa, A .; Walsh, F .; Mardinoglu, A .; Botvich, D .; Prina-Mello, A. 2011), as a result of the reception of electromagnetic signals and pulses from the nanocommunications network (Akyildiz, IF; Jornet, JM 2010). It is not necessary to warn about what it means that an external signal, not controlled by the inoculated person, is the one that governs the segregation of neurotransmitters. Take an example to raise awareness; carbon nanotubes housed in neuronal tissue could interfere with the natural functioning of the secretion of neurotransmitters such as dopamine, which is partly responsible for cognitive processes, socialization, the reward system, desire, pleasure, conditioned learning or inhibition (Beyene, AG; Delevich, K .; Del Bonis-O’Donnell, JT; Piekarski, DJ; Lin, WC; Thomas, AW; Landry, MP 2019 | Sun, F .; Zhou, J .; Dai, B .; Qian, T .; Zeng, J .; Li, X .; Li, Y. 2020 | Sun, F .; Zeng, J .; Jing, M .; Zhou, J .; Feng, J .; Owen, SF; Li, Y. 2018 | Patriarchi, T .; Mohebi, A .; Sun, J .; Marley, A .; Liang, R .; Dong, C .; Tian, L. 2020 | Patriarchi, T .; Cho , JR; Merten, K .; Howe, MW; Marley, A .; Xiong, WH; Tian, L. 2018). This means that it could be inferred in the normal behavior patterns of people, their feelings and thoughts, and even force subliminal conditioned learning, without the individual being aware of what is happening. In addition to the properties already mentioned, carbon nanotubes not only open the doors to the wireless interaction of the human brain, they can also receive electrical signals from neurons and propagate them to nanorouters, since they also have the same properties as GQD graphene nano-antennas and quantum dots, as explained in (Demoustier, S .; Minoux, E .; Le Baillif, M .; Charles, M .; Ziaei, A. 2008 | Wang, Y .; Wu, Q .; Shi, W .; He, X .; Sun, X .; Gui, T. 2008 | Da-Costa, MR; Kibis, OV; Portnoi, ME 2009). This means that they can transmit and monitor the neuronal activity of individuals.
For the data packets emitted and received from the nanocommunications network to reach their destination, it is essential that the communication protocol implements in some way the unique identification of the nanodevices (that is, through MAC) and transmits the information to an IP address. default. In this sense, the human body becomes an IoNT server (from the Internet of NanoThings) in which the communication client / server model can be assimilated. The mechanisms, commands or types of request remain to be determined, as well as the exact frequency and type of signal that operates the wireless nanocommunications network that would be installed with each vaccine, although obviously this information must be very confidential, given the possible consequences of biohacking. (Vassiliou, V. 2011) that could happen. In fact, in the work of (Al-Turjman, F. 2020) the problems and circumstances of the security of nanocommunication networks connected to 5G (confidentiality, authentication, privacy, trust, intrusions, repudiation) are linked and additionally, it presents a summary of the operation of electromagnetic communication between nano-nodes, nano-sensors and nano-routers, using graphene antennas and transceivers for their link with data servers, in order to develop Big-data projects. It should be noted that the risks of network hacking are very similar to those that can be perpetrated in any network connected to the Internet (masquerade attack, location tracking, information traps, denial of service, nano-device hijacking, wormhole, MITM broker attack, malware, spam, sybil, spoofing, neurostimulation illusion attack), which means a potential and additional, very serious risk for people inoculated with the hardware of a nanocommunication network.
In this context, it is in which the discovery of the circuits of a nanorouter in the samples of the Pfizer vaccine is found, which is a key piece in all the research that has been carried out and that would confirm the installation of a hardware in the body of inoculated people, without their informed consent, which executes collection and interaction processes that are completely beyond its control.
The discovered circuit, see figure 3, corresponds to the field of quantum dot cellular automata, also known as QCA (Quantum Cellular Automata), characterized by its nanometric scale and a very low energy consumption, as an alternative for the replacement of technology based on transistors. This is how it is defined by the work of (Sardinha, L.H .; Costa, A.M .; Neto, O.P.V .; Vieira, L.F .; Vieira, M.A. 2013) from which the scheme of said circuit was obtained. The nanorouter referred to by the researchers is characterized by an ultra-low consumption factor, high processing speed (its frequency clock operates in a range of 1-2 THz), which is consistent with the power conditions and data transfer requirements. , in the context of nanocommunication networks for the human body described by (Pierobon, M .; Jornet, JM; Akkari, N .; Almasri, S .; Akyildiz, IF 2014).
According to the explanations of the work of (Sardinha, LH; Costa, AM; Neto, OPV; Vieira, LF; Vieira, MA 2013), the concept of quantum dot and quantum dot cell is distinguished, see figure 4. The QCA cell It is made up of four quantum dots whose polarization is variable. This makes it possible to distinguish the binary code of 0 and 1 based on the positive or negative charge of the quantum dots. In the words of the authors it is explained as follows “The basic units of QCA circuits are cells made of quantum dots. A point, in this context, is just a region where an electrical charge can be located or not. A cell QCA has four quantum dots located in the corners. Each cell has two free and moving electrons that can tunnel between the quantum dots. It is assumed that tunneling to the outside of the cell is not allowed due to a high barrier potential”. Extrapolated to graphene quantum dots, known as GQDs, which were identified in blood samples (due to emitted fluorescence), a QCA cell would require four GQDs to compose, which is perfectly consistent with the description given by the researchers. This is also corroborated by (Wang, Z.F .; Liu, F. 2011) in his work entitled “Graphene quantum dots as building blocks for quantum cellular automata”, where the use of graphene to create this type of circuit is confirmed.
When the QCA cells are combined, cables and circuits are created, with a wide variety of shapes, schemes and applications, as can be seen in figure 5, where inverters, crossovers and logic gates are observed, also addressed by other authors such as ( Xia, Y .; Qiu, K. 2008). This gives rise to more complex structures, which allow to reproduce the electronic diagrams of the transistors, processors, transceivers, multiplexers, demultiplexers and consequently of any router.
It is important to explain that QCA cell-based circuits can operate in several superimposed layers, which allows a 3D (three-dimensional) structure to create much more complex and compressed electronics, see figure 6.
To develop a nanorouter, according to the researchers (Sardinha, LH; Costa, AM; Neto, OPV; Vieira, LF; Vieira, MA 2013), several circuit structures are needed, specifically, cable crossings (which form logic gates ), demultiplexers (demux) and parallel to serial converters, see figure X. “Demux” are electronic devices capable of receiving a signal at the input QCA (input) and sending it to one of several available output lines. (output), which allows the signal to be routed for further processing. The parallel-to-series converter is a circuit capable of taking several sets of data in an input (input), transporting them through different QCA cables and transmitting them at different instants of time through the output cables (output). This would be very, the component noticed in the vaccine samples, see figure 7.
Another relevant aspect of the work of (Sardinha, LH; Costa, AM; Neto, OPV; Vieira, LF; Vieira, MA 2013) is the demonstration of the operation of the circuit, where the reception of a TS-OOK signal and its conversion to binary code, see figure 8. Once the binary code is obtained, the “demux” circuit is responsible for generating the data packets, according to the structure of the corresponding communications protocol.
Everything explained by (Sardinha, LH; Costa, AM; Neto, OPV; Vieira, LF; Vieira, MA 2013) is also corroborated by (Das, B .; Das, JC; De, D .; Paul, AK 2017) In whose research, QCA circuit designs for demux and nanorouters are observed, with very similar schemes, to those already presented, which confirms the search for solutions for the problem of the transmission and simple processing of signals and data at the nanometric scale, at in order to make nanocommunication networks effective.
Finally, although it can already be deduced from the nature, characteristics and properties of QCA cell circuits, the concept of clock speed must be highlighted. In fact, interesting is the ability of these electronic components to operate almost autonomously, without the need for a dedicated processor. This is because the QCA cell cables can measure the transfer time of the signals between the different cells, in what is called “clock zones”, see figure 9 and the following investigations (Sadeghi, M .; Navi, K .; Dolatshahi, M. 2020 | Laajimi, R .; Niu, M. 2018 | Reis, DA; Torres, FS 2016 | Mohammadyan, S .; Angizi, S .; Navi, K. (2015). This effect allows the transmission of signals through the circuit, but it also allows creating a clock frequency, which is its own process speed. If this concept is joined, the use of superconducting materials such as graphene and more specifically graphene quantum dots Then very high processing speeds can be achieved.
Although it seems impossible, the self-assembly of circuits is a possibility to consider in the hypothesis that has been explained. According to (Huang, J .; Momenzadeh, M .; Lombardi, F. 2007) “Recent developments in QCA manufacturing (involving molecular implementations) have substantially changed the nature of processing. At very small feature sizes, it is anticipated self-assembly or large-scale cell deposition on isolated substrates will be used. In these implementations, QCA cells (each composed of two dipoles) are deposited in parallel V-shaped tracks. QCA cells are arranged in a dense pattern and the computation occurs between adjacent cells. These fabrication techniques are well suited for molecular implementation. ” However, there are also other methods, such as DNA nanopatterns (Hu, W .; Sarveswaran, K .; Lieberman, M .; Bernstein, GH 2005), with which a template is created for the alignment of the quantum dots of graphene, forming the QCA cells, thereby generating the aforementioned circuitry, see figure 10.
According to (Hu, W .; Sarveswaran, K .; Lieberman, M .; Bernstein, GH 2005) “Four-tile DNA rafts have been successfully synthesized and characterized by the gel electrophoresis method in our previous work” according to the work of (Sarveswaran, K. 2004). This fits with the very possible existence of a gel / hydrogel in the vaccine composition, after the doctor’s micro-Raman analysis (Campra, P. 2021) in which peaks with values close to 1450 were obtained, which could correspond to PVA, PQT-12, polyolefin, polyacrylamide or polypyrrole, all of them components recognized in the scientific literature as gels and derivatives. On the other hand, it explicitly alludes to the electrophoresis method, or what is the same, the electrical polarization process that causes teslaphoresis, on carbon nanotubes, graphene, quantum dots and other semiconductors, as described (Bornhoeft, LR; Castillo, AC; Smalley, PR; Kittrell, C .; James, DK; Brinson, BE; Cherukuri, P. 2016) in his research. This would confirm that teslaphoresis plays a fundamental role in the composition of circuits, along with DNA patterns. If this is confirmed, it would mean that the circuits could self-assemble in the presence of electric fields or even the reception of electromagnetic waves (microwave EM). The study by (Pillers, M .; Goss, V .; Lieberman, M. 2014) also confirms the construction of nanostructures and CQA using in this case graphene, graphene oxide (GO), electrophoresis and gel, causing controlled deposition in the areas indicated by the DNA pattern, reproducing results similar to those presented in the study by Hu and Sarveswaran, thus making it possible to create the electronic circuits already mentioned, see figure 11.
Another issue that requires an explanation in the discovery of the circuit of a nanorouter, in the vaccine sample, is its location in what appears to be a quadrangular crystal. Although it could be thought that it is a randomly generated form, the bibliographic review reveals and justifies this type of form that serves as a framework for this type of circuit. In reality it is a “plasmonic nano-emitter”, in other words, it would correspond to a cubic-shaped nano-antenna (single crystal) of variable size on the nano-micrometric scale, which can emit, receive or repeat signals. This is possible through the plasmon activation property of its surface (that of the nanoemitter cube) that is locally excited to generate an oscillatory signal, as explained (Ge, D .; Marguet, S .; Issa, A .; Jradi, S .; Nguyen, TH; Nahra, M .; Bachelot, R. 2020), see figure 12. This agrees with the type of TS-OOK signals, which are transmitted through the intra-body nanocommunication network, being a requirement indispensable for a nano-router, to have a method to capture them. In other words, the crystalline cube acts as a transceiver for the nanorouter, due to its special properties, derived from the physics of the plasmon. This is corroborated when the scientific literature on electromagnetic nano-networks for the human body is consulted (Balghusoon, AO; Mahfoudh, S. 2020), the MAC protocols applied to the case (Jornet, JM; Pujol, JC; Pareta, JS 2012 ), the methods for the debugging of errors in the signals (Jornet, JM; Pierobon, M .; Akyildiz, IF 2008), or the modulation of pulses in femtoseconds in the terahertz band for nano-communication networks (Jornet, JM; Akyildiz, IF 2014), the parameterization of nano-networks for their perpetual operation (Yao, XW; Wang, WL; Yang, SH 2015), the performance in the modulation of wireless signals for nano-networks (Zarepour, E .; Hassan, M .; Chou, CT; Bayat, S. 2015). In all cases, nano-transceivers are essential to be able to receive or emit a TS-OOK signal.
Plasmonic nanoemitters can acquire a cube shape, which would be the case observed in the vaccine sample, but also spherical and discoidal shape, being able to be self-assembled, to form larger nano-microstructures (Devaraj, V .; Lee, JM; Kim , YJ; Jeong, H .; Oh, JW 2021). Among the materials with which this plasmonic nano-emitter could be produced are gold, silver, perovskites and graphene, see (Oh, DK; Jeong, H .; Kim, J .; Kim, Y .; Kim, I .; Ok, JG; Rho, J. 2021 | Hamedi, HR; Paspalakis, E .; Yannopapas, V. 2021 | Gritsienko, AV; Kurochkin, NS; Lega, PV; Orlov, AP; Ilin, AS; Eliseev, SP; Vitukhnovsky , AG 2021 | Pierini, S. 2021), although it is likely that many others can be used.
CAM and TCAM memory for MAC and IP
If the presence of nanorouters in vaccines is considered, the hypothesis of the existence of one or more MAC addresses (fixed or dynamic) could be confirmed, which could be emitted from vaccinated people or through some other intermediary device (for example a mobile phone ). This approach is in line with what has already been explained and evidenced in this publication, but also according to scientific publications on nano-communication networks for the human body. According to (Abadal, S .; Liaskos, C .; Tsioliaridou, A .; Ioannidis, S .; Pitsillides, A .; Solé-Pareta, J .; Cabellos-Aparicio, A. 2017) these MAC addresses allow the nano- network can transmit and receive data, because the individual has a unique identifier that allows him to access the medium, this is the Internet. In this way, the nano-router can receive the signals corresponding to the data from the nano-sensors and nano-nodes of the nano-network to transmit them to the outside of the body, as long as there is a mobile device in the vicinity, which serves gateway to the Internet. Therefore, the hypothesis that MAC addresses of vaccinated people can be observed (through bluetooth signal tracking applications), when there is some type of interaction with the mobile media that act as a link. This does not mean that there is permanent communication, due to the need to save and optimize energy consumption (Mohrehkesh, S .; Weigle, MC 2014 | Mohrehkesh, S .; Weigle, MC; Das, SK 2015), which could explain intermittence in communications, periods of connection and inactivity.
The novelty in the field of MAC addresses, which comes together with the QCA circuits, with which nanorouters can be developed, is that memory circuits can also be created. The same researchers (Sardinha, LH; Silva, DS; Vieira, MA; Vieira, LF; Neto, OPV 2015) developed a new type of CAM memory that “unlike random access memory (RAM), which returns data which are stored at the given address. CAM, however, receives the data as input and returns where the data can be found. CAM is useful for many applications that need fast searches, such as Hought transforms, Huffman encoding, Lempel-compression. Ziv and network switches to map MAC addresses to IP addresses and vice versa. CAM is most useful for creating tables that look for exact matches, such as MAC address tables. ” This statement was extracted and copied verbatim to highlight that QCA circuits are the answer to the storage and management of MAC addresses for data transmission in nano-networks, which would confirm that vaccines are, among other things, a means of installing hardware for the control, modulation and monitoring of people.
Additionally, (Sardinha, LH; Silva, DS; Vieira, MA; Vieira, LF; Neto, OPV 2015) also developed the TCAM memory, which is a special type of CAM memory that would be useful to “create tables to search for longer matches such as IP routing tables organized by IP prefixes. To reduce latency and make communication faster, routers use TCAM. ” This statement clearly affects its use in nano-routers in order to be able to transmit the data obtained in the nano-network to a specific recipient server accessible on the Internet. In other words, the data collected by the nano-network should be stored / registered in a database, of which the recipient of the vaccine would not have knowledge of its existence, of which it was not informed, and in the It is unknown what information is used.
According to a new documentary out of Denmark, which interviewed former victims, the Central Intelligence Agency secretly carried out experiments on 311 orphaned children. The experiments were meant to reveal psychopathic traits and map out the link between schizophrenia and heredity.
According to the report, the children were tortured in clear violation of the Nuremberg Code of 1947 that introduced ethical restrictions for experiments on humans.
Hundreds of Danish orphans were unknowingly used in experiments backed by the CIA, according to Danish Radio, reporting on a new documentary called “The Search for Myself.”
According to the report, the experiments began in the early 1960s and spanned the course of two decades. They were conducted to investigate the link between heredity and environment in the development of schizophrenia.
However, the children were not told what research they were involved in. Not even after the experiments ended. It was also funded in part by a CIA front associated with the MK-Ultra program.
Eerily, the examinations took place in a basement at the Municipal Hospital in Copenhagen. The director and producer of the documentary, Per Wennick, was actually a victim of the CIA and subjected to these experiments as a child.
In the documentary, he recalled being placed in a chair, getting electrodes put on his arms, legs, and chest around the heart and having to listen to loud, shrill noises, which attempted to incite a psychological response.
“It was very uncomfortable”, Wennick told Danish Radio. “And it’s not just my story, it’s the story of many children.” By his own admission, he was promised “something funny” before being taken to the hospital. “I think this is a violation of my rights as a citizen in this society. I find it so strange that some people should know more about me than I myself have been aware of.”
According to historian, PhD, and museum inspector at the Danish Welfare Museum, Jacob Knage Rasmussen, this was the only known experiment in Danish history that used children under state care for research — and it was funded by the CIA in violation of the Nuremberg Code.
“I do not know of similar attempts, neither in Denmark nor in Scandinavia. It is appalling information that contradicts the Nuremberg Code of 1947, which after World War II was to set some ethical restrictions for experiments on humans. Among other things, informed consent was introduced, which today is central to the world of research”, Knage Rasmussen told Danish Radio. He emphasized the vulnerability of the group in the custody of the state, who had nobody to complain to.
According to Danish Radio, the idea to experiment on the vulnerable children came from American psychologist Zarnoff A. Mednick, who was then a professor at the University of Michigan.
According to Wennick and the National Archives, the research project was co-financed by the US health service. In the first year alone, the project was supported with what today corresponds to DKK 4.6 million ($700,000). It also received funding from the Human Ecology Fund.
The Human Ecology Fund was a CIA funded operation through the Cornell University College of Human Ecology Society for the Investigation of Human Ecology to support covert research on brainwashing. It was also connected to research under the MK-Ultra program in which social scientists, including anthropologists, were led (mostly unwittingly) to provide input into interrogation techniques still in use today.
Danish psychiatrist Fini Schulsinger dedicated his doctoral dissertation to the experiments in 1977, titling it, “Studies to shed light on the connection between heredity and environment in psychiatry.”
While researching for the documentary, Per Wennick managed to locate 36 boxes at the Psychiatric Centre Glostrup in Hvidovre that detailed the CIA’s unscrupulous child experiments.
However, when the center got word of the documentary, they began shredding the documents.
Danish Radio reports that Kent Kristensen, associate professor of Health Law at the University of Southern Denmark, pointed out that the shredding of the documents was illegal.
“I think it’s a huge failure for the former orphanage children who are interested in the pieces of their own childhood to get a total story made about their own lives. That possibility is deprived of them if you shred the research material,” Knage Rasmussen told Danish Radio.
Indeed. It also details the CIA’s depravity and violations of the Nuremburg code. If history is any indicator, however, no one will be held responsible for exploiting these children and it will be swept under the rug, likely escaping any scrutiny by the mainstream media.
After repeatedly accusing Google of ignoring Russian laws on obscenity, Russia has dramatically escalated its long-running battle with major US-based internet platforms. On Friday a Moscow court imposed an unprecedented fine of almost $100 million on Google for corrupting minors with porn, propaganda and transgenderism.
The content like pornographic material, as well as posts that reportedly promote drugs and suicide is under the dispute and the state media regulator Roskomnadzor has demanded the removal of the same.
Crucially, Kremlin officials and the regulator have long charged Google with promoting politically subversive messaging with the intent to stir up protests in support of jailed dissident Alexei Navalny.
Furthermore, Silicon Valley-based internet companies have been accused by Russia of allowing themselves to be used as a hidden hand of US foreign policy inside Russia and promoting controversial content like transgenderism among Russia’s youth.
Showing sexually explicit and corrupting material to minors is outlawed under recent legislation.
This fine of 7.2 billion rubles, (or $98 million) is record-setting as compared to prior fines imposed on US social media companies. The clear objective of imposing such a huge fine is to send a resounding message and warning.
Commenting on how the court arrived at this high figure, The Moscow Timesnotes that the Moscow magistrate’s court did so “under a legal clause that allows courts to impose between 5% and 10% of a company’s turnover, according to the state-run RIA Novosti news agency.”https://platform.twitter.com/embed/Tweet.html?dnt=true&embedId=twitter-widget-0&features=eyJ0ZndfZXhwZXJpbWVudHNfY29va2llX2V4cGlyYXRpb24iOnsiYnVja2V0IjoxMjA5NjAwLCJ2ZXJzaW9uIjpudWxsfSwidGZ3X2hvcml6b25fdHdlZXRfZW1iZWRfOTU1NSI6eyJidWNrZXQiOiJodGUiLCJ2ZXJzaW9uIjpudWxsfSwidGZ3X3NwYWNlX2NhcmQiOnsiYnVja2V0Ijoib2ZmIiwidmVyc2lvbiI6bnVsbH19&frame=false&hideCard=false&hideThread=false&id=1474339975185539074&lang=en&origin=https%3A%2F%2Fhumansarefree.com%2F2021%2F12%2Fgoogle-corrupts-minors-with-porn-propaganda-transgenderism.html&sessionId=06c184f28f92a577c078f640f344e81cf1d37b0d&theme=light&widgetsVersion=f001879%3A1634581029404&width=550px
So far Google has said little, only telling AFP that, “We’ll study the court documents and then decide on next steps,” according to its press office.
Meanwhile, Facebook and Twitter have so far faced symbolic fines over similar charges of failing to remove content. “Meta – which has a hearing in court later today on the same charges – has also been threatened with a revenue-based fine,” AFP writes.
“On Thursday, Twitter was handed its latest fine of three million rubles ($40,000) after authorities started throttling its services in the spring.”
However, it is highly unlikely and nearly impossible that Kremlin state authorities would ever go so far as to block these platforms, given the immense popularity among the Russian public, as it may result in massive backlash.
Recently, a leaked Facebook’s secret blacklist of ‘dangerous individuals and organizations’ showed it has over 4,000 entries. Among them are entities sanctioned by the US as terrorists, historical villains, cartels, militia groups, as well as dissidents.
The U.S. government is secretly ordering Google to provide data on anyone typing in certain search terms, an accidentally unsealed court document shows. There are fears such “keyword warrants” threaten to implicate innocent Web users in serious crimes and are more common than previously thought.
Robert Wood Johnson (J&J major stockholder) together with Zuckerberg-Chan also funded the Atlantic attack piece on me.https://t.co/NUmma64ikV
After going 36 hours without sleep, and 20 without water, I’m finally able to recount the events that occurred on Sunday, October 25th, and continued until the following evening. Thank you to those of you who encouraged me to write this.
Sunday, October 25th, began by me waking at 3:00 AM. Was originally planning on visiting Little Bighorn, Montana, the site of Custer’s Last Stand, (though I nearly had a last stand of my own a short while later).
Got in my companies loaner car, a black Chevy Malibu, (my company is very generous to its drivers, and the way it treats it’s drivers is extremely rare to find in the trucking industry. Too many instances of their generosity to note) to drive to Newtown from Killdeer. As I was driving, it was raining and my speed was 55. Suddenly, after passing hundreds of signs in just the last two years warning me about deer, the reason for the warning appeared. There was the proverbial “deer in the headlights”. They are stunned and disoriented, confused and dazed. Well this deer just stood and stared at certain death, too stupefied to move. I love deer, and hate the idea of hitting any animal, particularly a harmless, beautiful, peaceful, gentle deer, so I swerved to the left and applied the brakes. Well, the lights revealed the front, not the sides, and as I swerved, ANOTHER DEER appeared, directly in my path. There was no avoiding this one. It must have timed it’s spring directly for the moment of impact, because there was a loud THUMP, followed by the deer pogo-sticking off the hood, 3-5 feet in the air, and off to the passenger side of the car. I desperately hope it lived and wasn’t badly injured. Didn’t stop.
Drove to Newtown, had a great discussion with a few fellow drivers, and got my stuff and changed my plans, as I was delayed, it would take 5.5 hours to get to Montana, and Little Bighorn, and if I left at 10, I likely would be back at 7 or later, which was too late for me. So, change of plans, decided to find some history that was more local and decided on Medora, named after the wife of the Marquis De Mores. She was the daughter of a wealthy NY Banker. The Marquis came to the area, set up the first meatpacking plant in the area, only to see his business hopes dashed by the severe blizzards of 1886, which killed millions of cattle, and pulverized the cattle industry, wiping out many cattle barons and their fortunes. The remains of the meat packing plant are still there, along with the home. Disappointing to learn, upon arriving, that the home was closed, though the internet said it was open. So, right next door was “The Theodore Roosevelt National Park South Section”. Had already visited the site of Teddy Roosevelt’s Badlands ranch, “The Elkhorn”, getting my car stuck in the “Big Muddy” the Little Missouri River on my way back, getting towed out by a friendly neighboring rancher with his John Deere tractor.
Had also visited the North section of Teddy Roosevelt National Park a few months back, and saw a lot of bison. Roosevelt’s love of the wild, of adventure, and of “The Strenuous Life”, the title of one of the books he authored, have always been inspiring to me. The word strenuous is not commonly used, but, it commonly leads to peace and satisfaction to those who lead strenuous lives, the word meaning “requiring or using great exertion”. Little did I know that I was about to have the most strenuous 31 hours of my whole life
Went to the parks visitors center, bought a few books, and watched a short 17 minute video. The rangers, young adults all, were required to wear masks, though to their great credit, they did not prompt me to wear a mask. I wouldn’t have worn one anyway if they had. Already been arrested three times for not wearing a mask, and don’t mind being arrested 1,000 more times resisting this bogus hoax, the biggest fraud in human history. As I was checking out, I asked the young gentleman ranger on his views, and when he hurriedly tried to tell me he can’t discuss these things as a park ranger, and that it’s his job to wear masks, I asked him does the Goverment own him? He tried to escape, and I offered him my website, which he politely declined, and I wished him and his fellow rangers well and set off on my adventure.
There is a 38 mile driving path through the park where you can see a lot of the spectacular scenery.
Not having my phone, these pictures from the internet capture the beauty nicely. After passing a number of signs about walking trails, I finally decided to interrupt my car tour, and to get out and hike. Do not get much cardiovascular exercise as a truck driver, so have to take advantage of every exercise opportunity possible. The sign said, “Jones Creek trail loop, 11.3 miles”.
As you can see, the black straight lines represent the 38 mile car tour, and among the brown dotted hiking path lines are Jones Creek trail. Drove by Johnson’s Plateau, and the Cottonwood campground. Passed by the CCC trail, named for the Conservation Corps, the young men who the greedy bankers forced into Goverment jobs when they crashed the stock market in 1929. Interestingly, the NY bankers (I can’t even say who they are, or I’ll be called “anti-Semitic”) are up to their old tricks right now, with the coronavirus hoax, we are approaching stage 5.
Here are two map closeups, which are marked.
It’s now occurring to me what the problem was. I missed the Badlands spur connecting the Lower Paddock Creek Trail to the Lower Talkington trail, adding about 14 miles on, for a total of 25 miles, instead of the anticipated 11. Had I not missed the Badlands spur, all would have went as planned. Did not take maps with me, was relying on maps on the trail. It’s possible the spur was at the trail where I had to hike over hills to avoid the first Buffalo herd on the trail. When I reached the junction of Upper Paddock Creek and Painted Canyon, I had already hiked 12 miles in about 4 hours.
At the Jones Creek trailhead, decided to hike rather than drive, and when I noted the 11 mile trail, which is the 3.5 mile Jones Creek trail, then the .9 mile CCC trail, on the site of the former CCC camp, then the 3.6 mile Lower Paddock Creek trail, followed by the 1.4 mile Badlands Spur, and the 1.8 mile Lower Talkington Trail, and the final 1 mile of the Jones Creek back to my car.
Set off on my trek in high spirits, wearing a t-shirt, a shirt, a jacket which had helped me brave the bitter cold of Syracuse, New York in February of this year, jeans, hiking shoes, and a balaclava, with a ballcap over it. Had a brisk pace and was continually astonished at the gorgeous beauty of the landscape.
Finally came across terrain that showed why this place is called the Badlands. Early in the hike, the trail crossed Jones Creek at least a dozen times, and rangers had placed red scoria rocks across the creek to allow crossing. The mud of these creeks can destroy a hike if you get mired in its quagmire. Suddenly, came across marshy terrain, and I was hoping I wouldn’t be blocked by an uncrossable swamp or rushing creek. My hopes were realized. However, there was a three foot creek juncture, and a log was over it. Tentatively stepping on it, it was obvious it was not solid. Realizing there was no other path, and not wanting to turn back after hiking at least five miles already, I stepped on the log, when, to my consternation, the log rotated, and sent both my shoes to the mucky bottom. Hurriedly scrambling to dry land, I now had mud all over my socks, and my shoes had had a mud bath. Later, I discovered the shoes did not allow any mud inside, a huge relief.
Earlier in the trail I had observed large amounts of scat, which I thought were cows, though I had seen no cows. Finally, I realized they were all Bison scat, but I hadn’t really seen the Bison. The scat was quite fresh in some instances, indicating the Bison were very close by. Right after my fall in the bog, I turned to my left, and there, 100 yards away, with no trees between us was a Bison, full grown. He quizzically looked at me, and I beat feet to make myself scarce from there. Moving quickly along, and constantly observing the Bison, while also scanning for trees to put between us if he should charge, I continued. The Bison is one of the most fantastic mammals on the planet. Thank you for your patience for the readers who own Bison or are familiar with them, for the following sentences. Routinely reaching weights of 1,500-2,000 lbs, they also can run 35 mph for up to an hour, they can jump 6 feet straight up from a standstill, and they have the climbing skills of a mountain goat, easily traversing some of the steepest terrain imaginable. Knowing this, I was not anxious to get close to these furry Marvels. While I have friendly feelings for them, it is foolish to expect wild animals to instinctively return those feelings.
As I continued on the path, there were at least a half dozen prairie dog villages, with many barking warningly at me, and scurrying down their holes as fast as their stumpy legs could carry them when their shrill cries of defiance were ignored. A few brave ones kept right on foraging and munching on roots as I passed within ten feet of them. Models of efficiency and order, their burrows are fantastic creations.
After passing a few of these, I noticed my first herd of Bison, LAY DIRECTLY ON THE PATH I was on. There was no avoiding them by staying on the path, so I reconnoitered, and climbing a large nearby hill, surveyed the valley. First tried to go into a lower valley to go around them, and noticed a rather steep trail leading down. Before starting on the trail, peered to the bottom, and as I did, a gigantic Bison Bull came into view, with his head and eyes looking curiously up at me. Quickly repenting of any idea of going that way, I scampered off to the aforementioned hills, and took a wide route around the Bison herd, luckily emerging back on the trail.
Evening was coming on, and wondered greatly why I had not reached the end of the trail yet. Finally reached the junction of the Painted Valley Trail and the Upper Paddock Creek trail, marked with a blue plus sign.
I knew the Paddock trail led back to my car, though I didn’t realize I had missed my turn and had hiked 12 miles, and had 13 miles to go. Resolved to try that trail, that of Bison were on it, to try the Painted Canyon trail. Hiking a short distance down the Paddock trail, when BOOM, a few feet away, after turning a corner, was another herd of bison. Quickly retraced my steps, and went towards Painted Canyon, when, in the sun evening light, I saw another herd of Bison close at hand. This herd was so close that I scrambled up a rocky hill, using the rocks as handholds, trying to use the hills height and vantage point to determine the best path. It was then that the terrible reality hit me.
I looked to the sides of the hill, and there were steep drops of hundreds of feet. It was now night, and I couldn’t see any path, and there WERE NO LIGHTS AT ALL. The only lights were from the distant freeway, 2.1 miles away, from passing trucks. At first I panicked, and began to scramble down, realizing there was no way I was getting to work by 4 the next morning if I didn’t get back to my car. But then, remembering the stories of so many people who panicked in a crisis, and it led them to bad decisions, serious injuries, and even death, I decided to sit and ponder my situation. So, sitting down next to a Juniper tree, it seemed as if there were two options. One was to head down and try to reach my car, or the visitors center. Risks were having no light, possibly being attacked by Bison or other wild animals, with no ability to see, possibly falling hundreds of feet to my death, possibly falling into the creek and getting soaked with mud. The other option, was to stay where I was at, and to not move at all, until sunlight came and I could see again. I thought it would be 12 hours, it turned out to be close to 14. I decided that although the 2nd option involved serious risk from sub-freezing temperatures, rain, or possible snow, it had a far better probability of succeeding in avoiding injury and possibly death.
Resolved to endure what I thought would be 12 hours of bitter cold, I started trying to move around to avoid hypothermia. All the upper and lower body stretches I learned in boot camp 22 years ago, were once again repeated. Did dozens of squats, small and large, forward and backward arm rotations, shoulder shrugs, toe raises, leg extensions to both sides, upper body bends to the left and right, and others. Couldn’t do jumping jacks as I was on a hill.
The wind was furiously whipping around me. Thankfully, the Juniper tree, about seven feet high, absorbed most of the winds fierce blasts.
Didn’t know what a Juniper tree looked like, until I took a sprig from the faithful tree, and showed it to the park ranger who identified it.
Interestingly enough, the Juniper tree is mentioned in 1 Kings 19, when Elijah has just put to death the 400 prophets of Baal and is being pursued by Jezebel. He went into the wilderness and sat under a Juniper tree, asking God to die. Eventually a still small voice in the wind directs him, after he did not hear God in a great wind, a great earthquake, and a great fire. So, here I am in the wilderness, sitting under a Juniper tree too. Now, I haven’t killed the 400 prophets of Baal, though I sure wouldn’t mind serving the death penalty to the 400 prophets of Baal who own the Federal Reserve for all the lies, deceit, and murder they are guilty of. And, I wanted to live, not die, desperately praying for God to reduce the wind, as it habitually blows in huge storms, and to prevent it from freezing or raining. Was afraid the wind would whip my ballcap off my head and down the side of the cliff.
Kept doing exercises, and wanted to sleep, but, thought that if I went to sleep, there was a chance I might never wake up. Started seeing things because of sleep deprivation. Thought the bush about ten feet from me had a large bison standing behind it, that clambered up the side of the hill. There was the massive shaggy head, and there was the hindquarters. Well, I sure wasn’t going backwards, as that was a steep fall. I had a white stick in my hand, shaped like a picket, and resolved that there was no retreat, if that was a bison, was going to have to try to scare him off the hill. Threw one stick at it, and it sounded like it hit flesh, with a thud. Wanted to go try to touch it, to see if it was real or my imagination, but decided against that, as it would have very bad results if it were real. Finally determined it was just the shape of the bush.
Did hear the sound of grunting, and now a new fear occurred to me. Were their wild feral hogs in the park? Had heard about wild hogs attacking people. Was wondering about their climbing skills.
One thought kept giving me hope. The thought of finally going to sleep in my own bed, getting in the car and turning on the heater, and taking a hot shower. Thought about South Carolina’s state motto, “Dum spiro, dum spero”, While I breath, I hope, and, “nil desperandum”, never despair. What made the situation so bad, was there was no warning, I was suddenly in it, and hadn’t planned for it. Few rational humans would choose to sit on a hill, completely alone, no cell phone, no television, no books, no lights, in pitch black, surrounded by bison, with freezing winds whipping around them for close to 14 hours. There have been those who survived far worse, and this gave me hope. If only I could wait until morning. I watched for the dawning of day, as I never had before.
Knowing the lights of the trucks passing on I-94, 2.1 miles away were for the east, west portion, it wasn’t difficult to determine where East and west lay, and the Juniper tree behind me, was East, where I could expect the sun to rise. Wanted to watch for the first rays of morning, but, that meant facing the wind, and didn’t want to do that. It was strange, because though there were no lights at all, and it was cloudy, with no moon and stars, yet, the white stick appeared clearly on the ground. Odd. As I kept peering carefully back, trying to avoid having my hat blown off my head by a powerful wind gust, I started seeing signs of light. This got my hopes up, and I thought morning must be an hour or so away, and a thrill of joy coursed through me. Never had I so carefully watched for the dawn.
Developed a routine because my nose was running continuously. Had both my hands withdrawn into my jacket sleeves, wrapped up in a furry interior, and jammed deeply into my jacket pockets, constantly rubbing against each other to make sure I still had feeling in them. Would take my right hand out of my jacket pocket, extend it into the cold, bring it to my face, lower my balaclava shielding my face, wipe my runny nose, and then wipe that on the back of my jeans, trying to find a new spot, then, pull my balaclava back right below my nose, use my left hand in my jacket pocket to grasp and hold the edge of my right hand sleeve, withdraw my right hand back into my sleeve, and back into my jacket pocket. Must have done this at least 40 times.
Had a remote hope that a park ranger would notice my car, think something was wrong, look up the license number, and send a search party down the trail looking for me. There was no point in calling out for help, as there was no one to hear. If it had rained or snowed, there is a chance I could have been seriously injured, or even died. According to this website, on Friday, October 22nd, , in Medora, from 6 Pm to 8 AM roughly the time I was stuck on the hill Sunday night, the temperature ranged from 30 degrees to 35, reaching as low as 19 degrees. Right now the wind is 11 mph in Medora, and it was at least that if not 20 mph, made worse by being on a hill, which reduced the temperature further.
Finally, after what seemed an eternity of blistering wind, Exercising to keep warm, and seeing Bison in every surrounding bush, the first rays of the most beautiful dawn in memory spread their rosy hues over the landscape. Shortly before, had noticed that the truck traffic on the nearby highway had increased, a sure sign that morning was nearing. Remember thinking how wonderful it would be to be in the cab of my truck with the heater running.
You cannot imagine, dear reader, the happiness that filled my soul. I was alive, and I had survived. Waited until the early dawn was past. Heard a few howls and saw two coyotes scamper past the hill I was on far below. Walked around a bit, and happily noted everything moved, and had not lost feeling anywhere, which would have been a sign of hypothermia.
Finally had a clear view of below, and realized I’d clambered 1,000 feet at least up a very steep hill, and if I’d tried to climb down, I could have easily fallen hundreds of feet and been seriously injured or worse.
After climbing down carefully, trying to avoid sliding in the slick rocks and mud, went the route back to my car, and the bison herd was still there, so, went towards the Painted Valley visitor center, 2.1 miles away, and made it there by around 0830. Along the way, warily scouted for any bison every single step. It’s not easy, because there are hundreds of parts of the path where you can round it and be face to face with a bison.
The wind was still blowing fiercely at the visitor center, so, stood out of the wind, and eventually, Amanda, a ranger, came up to open the center, which opened at 0900. Told her my story, and she was relieved I survived, and said she’d get a ranger to give me a ride to my car. At about 1300, finally got a ride to my car, where I was able to inform my company. Could not work at all on Monday, was too exhausted.
As I drove out of the park, relieved, exhilarated, and exhausted, there was a herd of Bison on hand to wish me farewell.
I have never been this close to death and danger, and it made me realize, that so many things taken for granted, mean so very much. The sunrise, friendships, camaraderie, are all free. Came into the world with nothing, and will leave with nothing. Earlier, at the visitors center, I had bought seven books for children teaching them the Constellations, for my seven brothers and sisters who have children, and I was happy to think, that if I died, I would at least be remembered for thinking of others right up until I died. After they recovered my body, they would find a last gift to my family, in the car.
“Per ardua, ad astra”
Through difficulties, to the stars.
“Death by violence, death by cold, death by starvation – they are the normal endings of the stately creatures of the wilderness. The sentimentalists who prattle about the peaceful life of nature do not realize its utter mercilessness”.Theodore Roosevelt
“There are no words that can tell the hidden spirit of the wilderness, that can reveal its mystery, its melancholy and its charm. There is a delight in the hardy life of the open… Apart from this, yet mingled with it, is the strong attraction of the silent places, of the large tropic moons, and the splendor of the new stars; where the wanderer sees the awful glory of sunrise and sunset in the wide waste spaces of the earth, unworn of man, and changed only by the slow change of the ages through time everlasting”.Theodore Roosevelt
Now and then we hear the wilder voices of the wilderness, from animals that in the hours of darkness do not fear the neighborhood of man: the coyotes wail like dismal ventriloquists, or the silence may be broken by the snorting and stamping of a deer.Theodore Roosevelt
In recent years, the “true crime” genre has surpassed sports and politics in popularity. A flood of serial killer documentaries and movies have flooded streaming services, mostly focusing on infamous murderers from the 1960s, 70s and 80s like Ted Bundy, Aileen Wuornos, the Zodiac and Jeffrey Dahmer.
In both fiction and non-fiction, the serial killer is generally portrayed and even assumed by law enforcement to be a white man wracked with psychological eccentricities. As a result, the American public is under the impression that murders for sport are, unlike other types of violent crime, a uniquely white crime.
This impression is false.
According to research conducted by National Justice on serial killer arrests and convictions in 2021, there were at least three black serial killers for every one white offender.
Though the public has a voracious appetite for reading crime stories of this type, the national media routinely downplays or outright refuses to publicize information about black serial killers. Only a few black offenders are given snappy nicknames and, when caught, are rarely turned into household names regardless of how sadistic or prolific they are.
Unlike well-known white serial killers, blacks who murder for pleasure generally have long and violent arrest records, including previous murder convictions. In a number of cases, black serial killers prey on white victims, adding a potential racial dimension that prosecutors and investigators do not generally explore.
Here are some of the year’s offenders identified by National Justice.
1) Perez Reed
Perez Reed, known for his distinctive crescent moon tattoo, is alleged to have murdered at least six complete strangers and severely injured two others this year in separate incidents across Missouri and Kansas.
Reed’s modus operandi was to find a person alone on the street and gun them down with his .40 pistol in what authorities say was a “distinctive pattern.” In another incident, he presented a fake security guard badge to enter an apartment and murder the people inside.
2) Kevin Gavin
Kevin Gavin, who confessed this year for three separate murders between 2015 and 2021 in the same Brownsville apartment complex, has created controversy for the NYPD.
Gavin targeted elderly women inside the public housing building he worked in and operated undetected, usually offering to run errands for them to win their trust but eventually strangling, stabbing and stomping them to death. Residents of the building regularly complained about Gavin’s behavior but he was allowed to operate freely by the New York Housing Authority until his arrest.
3) Khalil Wheeler-Weaver
Khalil Wheeler-Weaver was sentenced this year for murdering three women and attempting to murder a fourth.
Initially the Daytona Police Department, using FBI pseudo-science, “profiled” the serial killer who was raping and shooting prostitutes as a white man with a girlfriend. They had no evidence to support this assumption.
DNA and ballistics evidence in 2019 revealed that the killer was Hayes, a black man. It is believed he may have killed up to seven women in total.
7) James Bradley
James Bradley, who this year lost the appeal of his most recent murder conviction, was originally incarcerated in 1988 for choking his 8-year-old step-daughter to death and making it look a kidnapping.
While in prison he authored multiple short stories vividly detailing his fantasies of becoming a serial killer who raped and tortured women. In spite of this, he was still paroled in 2013 after only 25 years of incarceration.
Shortly after being released, Bradley began relationships with white women who were prostitutes and drug addicts. The women soon began disappearing. He was convicted for the homicides and is currently serving life in prison after a jury deadlocked on a capital offense.
Robinson was taken into custody earlier this month for a spate of murders across different counties in Virginia. According to prosecutors, Robinson killed four women he met on dating site “Plenty Of Fish,” usually by meeting them in his motel room, murdering them, then taking their bodies to a dumping ground.
Maceo is a highly public lifestyle coach whose social media suggests he lives a life of luxury.
Police have not hesitate to dub Maceo a serial killer, though the story is still developing.
10) Malek Moore
Malek Moore has been arrested for the murders of two people, including an art teacher named Gabryelle Allnutt, in North Carolina.
Moore was evading parole supervision as he murdered people and was even able to escape law enforcement for days after being connected to the attacks.(Republished from National Justice by permission of author or representative)
(Of course, it’s your private property that will be abolished, not theirs. Yours will be theirs.)
Combined with digital ID (implemented under the guise of vaccine passports), central bank digital currency will lead to a new form of slavery where constant compliance with every demand of the elite is required to obtain the basic necessities of life.
When the World Economic Forum says “You will own nothing, and you will be happy”, they aren’t joking. If they get their way, you won’t even be able to save money and will be living hand-to-mouth. Digital currency will be like a high-tech ration card, only valid for a given time and not renewed unless you are sufficiently obedient to the state.
The paper attempts to present expiring currency as a beneficial idea. Supposedly it will allow the central bank to reimburse lost or stolen money, but how does a CBDC have a greater risk of being lost or stolen than your account balance in our current system which exists as nothing more than numbers in a computer?
Give them and inch and they will take a mile. Like other globalist scams, once they have their foot in the door you can be sure they will exploit it to the fullest. “Two weeks to flatten the curve” has become two years of rolling lockdowns, forced masking, and mandated gene therapy injections.
Combined with digital ID (implemented under the guise of vaccine passports), central bank digital currency will lead to a new form of slavery where constant compliance with every demand of the elite is required to obtain the basic necessities of life.
Through engineered chaos and a Marxist government, the country with the world’s largest oil reserves has been brought to its knees with hunger, crime, violence, and economic mayhem. Estimates of the rate of inflation vary from 1500% to near 3000%. Sell your car today, a year from now the same money might not buy you a toaster.
Without a contrived crisis, the public would never accept these sorts of policies. The response to the covid scamdemic has resulted in Western countries running massive deficits for two years in a row while small businesses suffer or close altogether, dependence on government handouts increases like never before, and many workers are forced into unemployment over gene therapy mandates.
The current situation in Venezuela is how North America and Europe may soon look if we don’t change course and throw off the globalist shackles.
Technology is sold to the masses as a luxury, meant to make our live easier and more comfortable.
In reality, it is being used as a tool of mass surveillance and control.
If these plans are allowed to proceed, we will lose what few rights haven’t been taken from us already. ——-
(The “Plan” is for the betrayed vaccinated to revolt and create a state of anarchy, such as seen in the Mad Max movies, left. The global government will ride in and restore order.)
If I were a betting man, this is the scenario I envisage today. (Hope I’m wrong!) As the death toll mounts into the millions, and people realize the vaccines are the cause, and the lockdown is permanent, the public will be so outraged that they will overthrow their governments and assassinate all those who promoted the scamdemic. The Illuminati want to instigate domestic insurrection, overthrow national governments, lynch politicians, in other words, create chaos. Ordo ab Chao is their motto. (See “Creative Destruction and 6uild 6ack 6etter”) This “plan” will unfold over the next 2-4 years.
That’s why they launched this diabolical scam which exposes and discredits all their flunkies without first securing gun control in the US. I urge members of their Masonic networks to break ranks now, rather than get thrown to the wolves later. (It’s also the right thing to do.) A billionaire in NZ supposedly leaked this “Plan” to a service provider he befriended. “The tables turn on the vaccine narrative. I was told in time the vaccine will increase infection and increase death. That billions will die, and the people will be enraged and burn their governments to the ground. Their leaders, scientists and media will be torched, hunted and hung in the streets. BOTH sides will burn their governments to the ground. The pro-vax side, completely betrayed and dying will rage.. the non-vax side will rage for what their gov allowed to happen.” The people promoting the vax will take the fall. That’s why they are so disposable. Biden is almost dead. Bojo, Macron & Fidelito are twits. The damage timeline for the mRNA vaccines is 2-3 years. The mRNA uptake “has exceeded their wildest expectations.”
I will not tell you who, or why. Let’s just say I spent days with this person and they have a bolthole in NZ. It’s the first time I’ve ever ‘hung out’ with a known, high net worth individual (billions). It was a chance encounter after doing some work for them in Queenstown. Dinner, drinks were had, and discussions took place. I was invited to hang at their place for the weekend. I am posting this now after processing it.
They were loose lipped and open with me but did say if mention these things, that ‘we never met’. But laughed and said no one would believe it anyway, so ‘have fun’, just keep their identity out of it.
They said we have nothing to worry about here, so in-spite of what they told me, he told me to consider myself one of the luckiest humans alive to be in NZ right now.
They asked if I took the vax, and were relieved when I said no. They said kiwis would get the antidote anyway but some will not make it to that point. After all, someone had to run things here ‘for them’.
Initially asked what they thought the ‘end game’ was for all this covid stuff, They asked me what I thought it was, with great interest, but I wasn’t close.
They basically said this..
-a plan was devised many years ago, and for many years that is all it was, a plan. They had to wait many years for the technologies available to make the plan viable. And to recruit the appropriate individuals.
-This is definitely about a new global government being put in place (details will continue)
-This new global government is already in place operating for years in complete secrecy, waiting on the sidelines, moving the chess pieces.
-The new government required some of the top minds on the planet, almost all of them came on board of their own free will and with a full belief in the cause of a new world government. In their view they are brute force saving humanity at all costs. I was told those who refused were dealt with, but in most cases, they would bring the person to the wider group and through discussions, they were convinced and became committed to the cause. Most times, these ‘minds’ were applying for fake jobs and going through psych evaluations etc as a first step.
-This plan is ongoing and the most complex global chain of events ever put into motion.
THE PLAN is essentially to turn every citizen of every country, violently against their own government. How they are doing this is pure genius and pure evil.
To achieve this plan, my chance encounter asked how would I do it? How would you turn every citizen of every country against their own government? I really have no idea. So they laid out the basics for me.
-There must be a global engineered ‘sickness’
-There must be mass fear, panic and paranoia
-Leaders, Scientists and Media must converge on consensus of a treatment
-that treatment would be essentially handed to them without them even realizing it
-Initially, there can only be few ‘sanctioned’ treatments, all other treatments must be deemed ‘dangerous, unsafe and banned’
-Leaders, Scientists and Media are manipulated, to believe this treatment’ is the only option, the only way to keep you and your family safe.
-Leaders, Scientists and Media in a sense, give you their word that this treatment is safe and effective
-Children were also targeted to inflict maximum pain and anger when it goes bad.
I found this part interesting. Our leaders, scientists and media are NOT complicit in this plan or actually part of this plan in any way. NONE of them, not even Fauci. They are mere fodder to these elites, serving a purpose then will be “discarded” or “‘fed to the angry” ! They have been played.
-The few outliers who question the ‘treatment’ are discredited in a variety of ways and censored
-Sanctioned ‘treatments’ are biologics/poison that takes 2-3 years to be fully realized.
-mRNA was the advanced technology they were waiting for.
-Public messaging ensures people beg for the ‘treatment’ and line up for it.
We could say, the plan is well underway at this point and so far hugely successful. The mRNA uptake has been huge and the people all believe the ‘treatment’ is the only way back to normality.
I was told it has exceeded their wildest expectations!
This is where the final plan executes.
The tables turn on the vaccine narrative. I was told in time the vaccine will increase infection and increase death. That billions will die, and the people will be enraged and burn their governments to the ground. Their leaders, scientists and media will be torched, hunted and hung in the streets. BOTH sides will burn their governments to the ground. The pro-vax side, completely betrayed and dying will rage.. the non-vax side will rage for what their gov allowed to happen.
I was also told when this happens think “Mad Max” for a while, but think of NZ “Elysium”. There are a few designated zones like AZ, but due to geography and infrastructure NZ is known as Zone 1. Once the masses are free of government and all those who ‘betrayed’ them, and they have suffered enough. This is when the new global government will emerge as the great saviour. It will be an ‘”easy sell” I am told.
This was my brain dump. I probably left out quite a bit. They waxed on about this but somewhat ignored direct questions.
They said they liked me and want me around when the dust settles, that I was hugely useful to them.
I dunno, part of me just thinks they were f’ing with me. I do feel better about being where I am right now.
First Comment from G That’s just “The Plan.” But we really should be focusing on “The Super Plan” where the people of the world fight back and ACTUALLY WIN. Where they summon courage and wills of steel and brandish every possible weapon they can find or build, to bring this beast to its end. See Tactical:
We will burry our dead, the brave who gave everything to stop EVIL. And then we move on. Did I mention that the THE SUPER PLAN comes in two parts. In the second, the people of the world rebuild society to their liking and to accommodate freedom with cooperation, where every individual is a king in his own castle. Many ask how this will come about. What about hospitals, and all other essential industry? And what about non-essential industry where we get to explore, invent, expand? To that I say the best in all fields will come forth and help, and though we will likely have to start from the ground up, start we will. Is there anything both more practical and spiritual than SURVIVAL WITH INTEGRITY.
Dan Abshear, 55, left, was making $150K as a pharma rep. He has been destitute since 2006 when he exposed his employer, Novartis, for bribing doctors to prescribe drugs. The medical profession has been corrupted which explains the scamdemic. His wife divorced him and alienated his daughter. Most medical doctors have been taking bribes to prescribe drugs for a long time so it’s not surprising that they would fall into line when in comes to toxic and unnecessary covid vaccines. Nor is it surprising that the US Dept of Injustice would cover it up, as they did in 2006.
“After blowing the whistle, 90 percent of whistle blowers were fired or demoted. 27 percent faced lawsuits themselves. 26 percent had to seek psychiatric or physical care. 25 percent suffered substance abuse. 17 percent lost their homes. 15 percent experienced divorce. 10 percent attempted suicide. 8 percent were bankrupt. But in spite of all of this, only 16 percent said they would not blow the whistle again.”
Makow comment- No surprise that so few are prepared to challenge the corruption when those who do, like Dan Abshear, are abandoned to a dire fate.
“There is a pathologically intimate relationship between corporations and the U.S. government- their collusion is expressed in the revolving door. “
from Sept 27, 2010 by Dan Abshear (for henrymakow.com)
In the Spring of 2006, I became a pharmaceutical corporate whistle blower. In February of that year, I had recruited a law firm with experience in pharmaceutical whistle blower lawsuits in Boston, which is a top place to file and submit pharmaceutical whistle blower cases. They agreed to represent me after I submitted a ten page document to them I composed- explaining why the wrongdoing of my employer, Novartis Pharmaceuticals, needed to be addressed. They represented me on complete contingency, which meant that they would not be paid if they did not succeed in the whistle blower lawsuit they were submitting for me. The law firm submitted the whistle blower lawsuit against Novartis in April of 2006. And it was filed under seal, which means that I and my legal council cannot discuss the case whatsoever. It’s a trick played by the D.O.J., to eliminate the possibility of media contact. I made a trip to Boston in July of 2006 to be asked hundreds of questions by various relevant government entities, such as the department of health and human services. Also, in the center of a large table in a conference room, was a phone, with numerous attorney generals from various states- all there to hear my answers to the hundreds of questions I was asked one day, for 8 hours. I spoke with complete knowledge of the evidence, and with total honesty. HISTORY Novartis hired me at the end of 2001 as one of their many sales representatives. At that time, I had already worked for two of the top pharmaceutical corporations in the world, which were Merck and Pharmacia Corporation. The game is the same no matter which pharmaceutical corporation one may work for as a sales representative. That game, as a pharmaceutical representative, is bribing doctors: hiring doctors to be on the payroll of the pharmaceutical corporation. In the years I worked for Novartis, I received above average raises yearly. I received numerous awards from Novartis. I was very well liked and respected. Novartis gave me a company car, I normally only worked half-days. I was viewed as an expert as a pharmaceutical sales representative. I was often asked to train other new sales representatives. This was vocational bliss. So, why would I even consider reporting wrongdoing by them, if they treated me so well? Was I insane? WIDESPREADCORRUPTION
In the year 2003, I discovered CafePharma. CafePharma is basically an online venting board for pharmaceutical representatives. Such representatives who post on this board often do so with overt anger and disgust. My uneasiness about bribing doctors was validated by what representatives from many pharmaceutical companies wrote on this board. The money we paid targeted doctors are kickbacks. By paying such doctors, we as sales representatives are violating the federal anti-kickback statute. As sales reps with large pharmaceutical corporations, the more doctors you acquire n your territory, the more you assure your career with your employer. You are told ad nauseum by your employer to seek and pay targeted doctors. With Novartis, they took things a step further: They sent instructions to their sales force to remind doctors paid by representatives that they are obligated to prescribe Novartis pharmaceuticals whenever possible. This, of course, potentially clouds the clinical judgments of such doctors, and as a result, adversely affects the restoration of health obligated by the health care provider. (Younger days)
The year now was 2004, and I had had enough. I had enough of Novartis threatening the members of their sales force. Each representative was given a promotional budget. Often, this budget was several thousand dollars per month. The unspoken rule was, each representative has to spend all their budget, or else. It was this year I started to read books written by those experts critical of the pharmaceutical industry. I began to become very uncomfortable about the industry I represented. Also, in 2004, I started to collect evidence in the form of internal documents- accessible only to Novartis employees, and not intended to be viewed by others. Documents illustrating the coercion by Novartis to its sales force to spend their promotional budgets. Documents in the form of emails by upper management- indicating the need to enforce quid pro quo- to acquire and keep targeted doctors on the payroll of Novartis. Documents instructing the sales force to sell a promoted drug for a use not indicated by the food and drug administration. SPLIT PERSONALITY
At this time, I suffered from pharmaceutical representative schizophrenia. One personality of me I expressed was the perfect sales representative, who always spent the promotional budget, and became elated at hearing that various disease states for which the promoted products would treat were expected to increase. The one who acquired and hired doctors targeted by Novartis. The one who believed in bribing and threatening doctors on the payroll of Novartis. The other personality I represented quietly was the one who had a need to report this wrongdoing by my employer. My real personality. The year 2005 approached, and I continued to collect evidence in the form of Novartis internal documents. By the end of 2005, My whistle blower personality was dominating my existence. I became vocal about my unease with what we were being told to do by Novartis as sales representatives. I deliberately dug my own employment grave with Novartis. In the Spring of 2006, I was ostracized by Novartis, due to what I expressed about the illegal nature of my job. Days after the whistle blower lawsuit was filed in Boston, I was terminated. . I expected to be terminated, at that point. In 2007 and 2008, I discovered that no corporation would hire me. No large corporation. It is as if potential employers were aware that I blew the whistle against Novartis. There is a system within the Department of Justice called the PACER system, I believe. It records all who file such lawsuits as I filed via my legal counsel. And it’s accessible to anyone. In these years, I acquired employment by two very small pharmaceutical companies, but the pay was next to nothing. I was laid off in the Spring of 2008 by one of them, and that was the official end of my career as a pharmaceutical sales representative. GOVERNMENT FAILS TO INTERVENE In the Spring of 2009, my whistle blower lawsuit was unsealed by the D.O.J., and, even though the evidence I presented was overwhelming, the government did not intervene in the case that I filed. I suspect that Novartis bribed the D.O.J. not to intervene. There is a pathologically intimate relationship between corporations and the U.S. government- their collusion is expressed in the revolving door. Of all large pharmaceutical corporations, and the settlements they have paid for wrongdoing identical to what I discovered and presented to the D.O.J. with Novartis, Novartis has paid the least amount over the years. A study of 233 whistleblowers was conducted years ago, to explore the effect on one who blows the whistle on a corporation. Their findings: The average whistle blower is a man in his 40s with a strong conscience and high moral values. I was near the age of 40 when I became a whistle blower. After blowing the whistle, 90 percent of whistle blowers were fired or demoted. 27 percent faced lawsuits themselves. 26 percent had to seek psychiatric or physical care. 25 percent suffered substance abuse. 17 percent lost their homes. 15 percent experienced divorce. 10 percent attempted suicide. 8 percent were bankrupt. But in spite of all of this, only 16 percent said they would not blow the whistle again.The only effect I did not experience with this study above is facing any lawsuits.
No, I do not regret what I did. I would most certainly do it again. That lawsuit I filed is public record. I’ve applied for hundreds of jobs – jobs I’m most qualified to perform. And no one replies. The job I have now, setting up greeting card displays, they hired me out of desperation. It’s low paying and very physically demanding.
After whistle blowing, I was abandoned by my own family and friends back home in Missouri. No one could comprehend why I did it. All they know is that I intentionally lost a very good job. My ex-wife said all this to me weeks after learning I would not receive a settlement for this lawsuit. She then used a phony “abuse” charge to jail and clean me out. They all treated me great when I was middle class, these family members and close friends. Once I became unemployed, they disowned me.
I miss the lifestyle I once had with the money and all. But I’m a better person I feel without that life. A much better person. So I’ll likely never have that life again. What I’d like is a book contract. That would get me out of poverty. Right now I’m about trying to survive and doing good for others in some way. And I’d like to find a girl possibly w RECALLING THE GOOD TIMES? When I was a pharmaceutical rep, I wore thousand-dollar suits. I got company cars. Often I’d take doctors out to very expensive steak dinners and things like that. Limousines would pick me up at airports when I’d fly to meetings. I’ve lost that life somewhat intentionally. It is as if I’ve been teleported to this parallel universe where now I try to simply survive every day. Yet, I’m much more awake in this universe. I am very thankful for that. At times I feel as if I’m living on borrowed time. By some estimates I should be dead. Yet I continue to love and protect others. That keeps me going- having others to sustain me in some way. And I feel I sustain them one way or another. They are beautiful souls these people. We do not judge each other. Severe parental alienation is also occurring. I have a 16-year old daughter in Missouri who I’ve not see or spoken to in years. I hand write her beautiful letters every week, and I mail these letters to her with beautiful cards to my ex in law’s house, because I have no idea where my daughter lives now. She does get these letters but she does not write me back or contact me. This is a constant pain in my life. Often I go to food pantries so I can eat. I do get food stamps, but I sell these to a friend for extra money so I can pay bills. Also, I shovel snow in the winter so I can keep this apartment I always try to make extra money. SOUL TO THE FORE There is no atrophy of my essence. My soul remains on fire always. If I do get knocked down, I always get back up. I was recently beat up at a bus stop here in Milwaukee. Considering the trauma I’ve experienced in my life, this beating did not phase me much. My jaw was broken. I never fell when I was hit a few times at this bus stop by a very large black man. When I don’t work, I normally go to this VA hospital to see friends and use their computer. This is where I’m at now. Near there is a coffee house for veterans. I also go there to use their computer and see more friends. You see, I really do not like being alone at all. I have post traumatic stress disorder. Among other symptoms, I often experience nightmares normally involving my ex wife and daughter. People really need to explore intrinsic pain more then they do. High anxiety complicates my situation by the way. I’m never at peace. And I never sleep well. While I’m suicidal at times, I’m overall very optimistic with my life- this life of struggle and striving to survive. This is for really two main reasons. First one is I’m somehow very healthy physically. When I work, I often lift and move thousands of pounds of equipment. And I never sweat. I have no pain and no fatigue. At the age of 48, I could easily compete with any 20 year old at this time. I often walk miles every day because I do not have a car. Again no fatigue. No pain. My last physical revealed no issues physically whatsoever. I’m very thankful for my present condition, but I’m very amazed I’m this healthy all things considered. Second reason I remain optimistic is that I appear to be very likable. You would think I’d be very angy and bitter considering all that has happened to me. But I’m not at all. My disposition remains pleasant. I hit it off with strangers. And I have solid relationships with friends in this city right now. So try and remember this: What does not kill you in life really does make you stronger. Often much stronger. I’m living proof of this. —–